Love & Lust

Forever, on repeat.

I was looking for a good song to listen to when I suddenly passed through the song Forever by Amber Pacific.

It’s been a while since I’ve last listened to this song and still, it has a strong impact on me. Lololol.

As soon as the song started, different memories w/ my significant other repeatedly flashed on my mind. This song used to be our “theme song” back in the days and it just makes me so kilig. Hehe. I remembered all the events that had happened even before we officially went out together and i’m not gonna deny the fact that I just miss all those times. :/

I miss the days when I used to go online every day just to talk to him. I used to skip dinner just to catch him online. Hehehehe. There were times that I just stared at his name, waiting for him to message me. I’m just too shy to start our conversation! Plus, talking to him before makes me so nervous and uneasy. I tend to “prepare” everytime we talk ‘coz I didn’t want him to get bored while talking to me. I actually made a list of things to talk about. Lol how… crazy of me to do that, really. 

I also miss how we chat through-out the night. LITERALLY! There was one time, we were doing our paper for Socio and we lost track of time that the sun had already risen! We both agreed to go to school right after we talk. =)) lol. He even insulted me that I looked like a zombie. So mean.. hahaha joke! 

I also remembered the day when we played in the rain. As far as I can remember, we were eating dinner together with our blockmates when it suddenly rained. I usually don’t like the rain ‘coz it gives me a sad feeling but that night was different. Kevin and I decided to go play in the rain. Hehehehe. That was one of the most unforgettable moments of my life! We didn’t care if we look stupid or whatever because we were having so much fun! We even bought Zago even if we were already freezing to death. Hahaha. And people just kept on looking at us. (i bet they were envious of how sweet we were back then hahaha joke!) We even took a bus going home even though we were so wet! Hayyy.. such a very happy day! Hihi.

I also miss the moments when I used to stalk him. I’m not saying that I ain’t stalking him now ‘coz I sure am one hell of stalker. =)) Let’s just say that I was a professional stalker of Kevin before. I wanted to know everything. From the time he goes to school and to what time he usually arrives home. I was also so curious of the different people he texts because I was wishing that someday he would also text me! No shit. I was really a certified stalker. Hahaha!

Hayy, I have a lot of memories to tell but I guess one blog post wouldn’t suffice everything. I guess I just miss how we were back then because honestly, everything is different now. Things got more.. complicated, I suppose. We weren’t as carefree as we were before. I’m not saying that I hate what’s happening right now because I really have nothing else to wish for! I’m just saying that I plainly miss those old good times and if ever given the chance to rewind and repeat all the memories I have shared w/ this man, I would definitely grab that chance. I have never been this happy before and i’m really grateful because he made me feel this incredible kind of happiness. I was able to enjoy life without giving something in return. 

With that one song, I was able to reminisce the good things that had happened to us before.

I’m gon’ listen to Like We Used To now by A Rocket to the Moon and be so emo as fuck. Hahahaha kidding.